It goes like this: the fourth, the fifth...

They say that college is a place where a student can really catch up on sleep lost. After years of having to get up far to early to make it to public school, in college, you might not have a class until noon. And yet, somehow, I remain just as tired as ever, if not more than I was. Besides for the seven or so hours that I got last night, I slept for an additional three hours before my music class, and another half an hour now, and I will still have difficulty completing my reading due to dreary eyes.

I bought some caffeine pills last week in an effort to solve my problem of drifting off during my music and math classes. I took one last Thursday, and it worked. I did not have trouble sleeping. The issue is that I did not feel truly awake, either. I was in that distinctive area between sleep and wakefulness, hovering just above the crashing point. Ironically enough, when it was time for me to turn in for the night, around two o'clock-ish, I had difficulty falling asleep, many hours after the caffeine pill seemed to have worn off.

The box claims to have the same amount of caffeine as a cup of coffee. If that were so, would I not have been much more alert to my teacher's describing the different words for tempo and volume?

I had an improv group rehearsal today. At the end of rehearsal we were asked how our weekends went, and I said, truthfully, that my weekends are dull, at least in comparison to these rehearsals. There is nowhere else that I've found yet where I can really relax the Maginot lines I've put up to keep from pushing new people away. As I said to my roommate via instant message this summer, I tend to come across as obnoxious if I don't make an attempt to control myself. That's what I've been trying to work on since moving in - tempering my attitude so that I don't inadvertantly alienate myself.

In case whatever audience I've maintained hasn't noticed, I don't necessarily report on what's interesting or important in my life as it is, rather, I discuss (with myself, so I guess 'discuss' isn't the right word) what I observe and the effect it's had on me.

On that note, I don't think our toilet is functioning properly.

I don't feel my situation regarding the T token is fully resolved. I did return the token to its' rightful owner, and in so doing, asked its' owner if she would accompany me for coffee after Mass yesterday. She responded by saying she had a great deal of homework to complete, and would be unable to join me.

I'm not sure exactly how to take this. Is it an out-and-out rejection, or just a delay? Is it deflecting my proposal until a later time, or is it a genuine request for a different time to be set?

While I can't say these questions have been keeping me up at night, they do weigh on my mind on occasion. So that next step, should there still be a staircase available for me to ascend, becomes the question.

I don't even like coffee. I would have gotten tea.